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First Higurashi one-shot.
Please note that I'm taking many authors' liberties here, and certain facts may be completely changed, especially regarding Satoshi's Syndrome and Irie's knowledge on the matter, as well as his behavior. Please enjoy.


He looks different. He's limping and the shadows in his eyes are darker. But he still smiles at me and it makes my throat tighten.

It's been a year. Or perhaps two? It makes no difference.

Satoko-chan has returned home a long time ago. I managed to find a cure; just a moment before Takano decided that she can only be used as a test subject. What did he come here for? His examinations have been completed, and as much as unrecognizable feeling stabs at my thoughts, there is no reason for him to come here.  

He greets me with a smile, and I return it. Outside the clinic, cicadas are chirping in the sweltering heat. We are sitting in my office, the sharp smell of antiseptics flowing in the air. We sit in silence; there is nothing to be said.

Not much has changed; only a few bruises have appeared on his body. I offer to attend to them; he declines and we return to being silent.

There is nothing I can do.

I take a sip of my coffee; it burns my tongue with a bitter taste. I have had trouble with sleeping lately, staying awake at night. Thinking. About Takano. Jirou. Me. Satoshi. Why things are turning out the way they are. A lot of things have happened – I've invented a new cure for the Syndrome, as well as a vaccine. Satoko's Aunt and Uncle returned to Hinamizawa. An abuse report was filled a week later.

So why do I have the feeling that nothing is different? That everything which has taken place so far, has occurred before?

I blink. My glasses are misting up from the steam of the coffee, so I take them off and lay them on the desk. Satoshi looks at me, a darkness looming over his expression.

Is it me, or has his hair thinned? His skin paled? He looks unhealthy and I'm tempted to take a blood test. Has he been sleeping badly, just like me? Does this feeling of unavoidability keep him from falling asleep? Or is it his Aunt's shouting at Satoko-chan keeping him high-strung all the time, on his guard every second?

Takano's grown restless; I often see her with an anxious look twisting her face. The Hinamizawa case isn't progressing as well as it was expected to; medication has been found, so the disease is no longer dangerous enough to attract public attention. At that point, we're not much different; I have failed my father's case and she is failing to prove her grandfather's research. But where I have accepted it, Takano has been taking action with more and more recklessness; she barely contains her paranoia, the usually smug look on her face cracking with each failure. Soon, she will start to search for the guilty; the question is only, who will die first. Me or Tomitake-san.

I personally wouldn't mind dying, but I still have few things to accomplish. I need to stay here for Satoko-chan and Satoshi-kun as long as I can. God knows I'm utterly helpless; everything I can do for them, is just be there for them. My association with the Yamainu and Tokyo disallows me to do anything. I'm supposed to stay in the shadows.

Satoshi's gaze finally drops, and he tangles his hands together, shoulders slumping. We stay still, the clock ticking in the background. The time passes by slowly; after a millionth tick or so, Satoshi asks me if he can leave the baseball club. I agree, faking a cheerful tone. I don't know why I bother. We both know why he is doing this.

A sinking feeling encages my chest; how much time does Satoshi-kun have left? For how long has he been denying his medicine, leaving it to Satoko-chan?

I finally decide that it's time for him to return home, as the evening rays shine on my back.

I raise myself, my body all too heavy and Satoshi lifts himself as well. We drag ourselves to the door; I lay my hand on his shoulder, not knowing what to say. Satoshi gives me a tired look, and I understand what he feels perfectly. Acceptance.

It's not always like that. Sometimes he is manic; sometimes, he is the responsible older brother, who knows what he has to do. Sometimes, his depression kicks in and he quits taking the medicine at all, but I know better than to leave him alone and come to his house.

Now, however, I see it.

Soon, he is going to leave me. He's stronger than me. I can't save Satoko. But he can. If he accepts that, if he's willing to, I have no right to stop him. Even if it's going to leave me heartbroken.

I embrace him, and regret that I never had the strength to show him how much he meant to me. Or to tell him. But Takano would have noticed and then, we'd both be in danger. I ask him if I should tell Satoko what he is about to do. A pained look twists his expression. He doesn't want me to. I accept it, wordlessly, silently thanking him for having the courage I don't. He walks out of the room; the tapping of his shoes quickly dies. I resist the want to follow him.

Soon, Satoko-chan will be happy. And that's everything what matters.
A old Higurashi one-shot.

Slight IriexSatoshi.


I do not own higurashi and I am not making any profit of this (not to mention it is impossible to make profit of such bad fanfics as this one)
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Silver-Sun334 Featured By Owner May 4, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I love this! ;a; Gyahh...you have now officially made me ship this. It's a shame there isn't that much Irie/Satoshi stuff out there. ><' D-do you think you could write another fanfic with this pairing, per chance? ;w; I really like this..
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IDoNotNeedAName Featured By Owner May 5, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
awww thank you a lot! I'm not very confident about my writing skills..but yes, I've been planning out another IriexSatoshi fic. I'm torn between making it a "classical" Higurashi arc, and a normal romance fic with angst in it. either way, it's going to be hard, but I'll try anyway (: Ooooh and it's not really going to be yaoi. Just shonen-ai at the best.
I, too, mourn not only the lack of SatoshixIrie fanfics, but of Irie fics in general D: there really are too few fics about him..but recently, a KeiichixIrie fanfic appeared on fanfiction.net, you might want to check it out as it's quite enjoyable :)But I still prefer SatoshixIrie, I think it has a great potential. Shame that a bad writer like me won't be able to bring that potential out. Seriously, if somebody besides me decided to write a SatoshixIrie fanfic, I'd ship it so hard :'< Thanks once again for the fav! And sorry to make you read my rant :>
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Silver-Sun334 Featured By Owner May 5, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You should be very confident about your writing; it's amazing! I've always wanted to be a good writer, but I've never been good at starting stories and making them move on their own... ^^; I guess I need to keep on practicing. That makes me seriously happy. If you do decide to make another fic, I will definitely read it! ^^
Honestly, I think that Irie doesn't get enough love. ><' I'm sure it's because some of the Higurashi fans labeled him as a pedophile and wanted nothing to do with him, but I still like Irie, regardless of his label. Oh, pfft. You are NOT a bad writer. You are one of the best writers I've met on Deviantart, seriously.
Haha, it's no problem! x3 I enjoyed it.
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IDoNotNeedAName Featured By Owner May 5, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
On a more serious note, it's only the anime and (some) manga arcs that portray Irie as an absent-minded pedophile. If you play the sound novels (I really, really recommend them! Unlike the anime, they are actually scary), you will notice that waay more attention is paid to Irie in Tatagoroshi-hen. Google says that the reason behind all the pedo-related crack in the anime was Irie's relationship with Satoko - the makers decided to "make fun" out of that. I personally don't mind, these scenes were somewhat funny, but I still prefer Irie in the VNs. He has so much more depth in them. He even has badass moments. Not to mention that he's not really the "happy doc" he was in the anime.

And concerning writing - don't let your "supposed lack of skills" stop you from writing! The best way to learn writing is to....write. Tutorials can only help you if try to go forward. I had a similiar problem with drawing back in the time - I spent waaaay too much time reading tutorials instead of drawing. Practice, not theory, makes perfect, so I think you should write regardless of how you feel about your skills. The worst thing you can do is to think "I'll write a master piece. I'll make everyone cry, it'll be the most touching story out there!!". I don't want to sound selfish or anything like that, but I often catch myself trying to write a perfect story. I spend days, weeks, months planning it all out just to discover I have no idea how to start. I'll let you in on a secret: I've only finished one story in my whole life. One. Story. And by story I mean something that isn't a one-shot, because I have quite a few of them. I usually get stuck on the beginning, because I don't know how to continue. One way I've found to deal with that is simply to write the ending first and then everything that happened before.
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Silver-Sun334 Featured By Owner May 5, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Oh, really? Well, I've heard great things about the VNs for Higurashi, so I will definitely listen to them when I get a chance. I've only read two of the Higurashi mangas. ^^; Well, that makes me really want to check out the VNs. Honestly, I thought the anime was ok, but it wasn't as scary as I had been expecting. Creepy, yes, (then again, pretty much anything with Higurashi is creepy) but not scary.

I totally agree; practice makes perfect! I'm just not very confident with what I do, so if I don't like it, it goes in the trash. XD I've never used tutorials or art books to learn how to draw; I guess you can call me a self-taught artist. But when it comes to writing...I need as many tutorials as I can find. x3 I totally know how you feel, about the perfect story/artwork/etc. Don't you hate it when you are picturing something really amazing in your head, and you just can't get it on paper? It frustrates me to no end when this happens to me. ><'
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IDoNotNeedAName Featured By Owner May 5, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Yes that's so horrible >.< and it happens whenever I have a great idea. But oh well, I guess I'm not the only one to struggle with such a problem :)
seriously-you-need-to-gain-more-confidence-you-remind-me-of-myself-a-few-years-ago. From what I've seen in your gallery, you make progress really fast, and that's awesome! also, from today, don't trash your stories! E-mail them to me :3 (I can give you mah e-mail if you want to have it) and I can give you some critique if you'd want me to. Also, I'd have some good stuff to read :D I looooove reading my friend's stuff, she reminds me a little of you: "oh my god those stories are so horrible I'll just delete them all". It's not like I see myself as flawless, I often go on a rant about how horrible my writing is, but luckily my friend is there to support me :3 We support each other actually, it works great. And I'll be honest: my friend's and my writing wasn't good at all, in the beginning at least. But we've been working hard, and it's better now :) not perfect, of course, but much better. we still have a separate way of writing, she writes mostly fluffy "hetero" romances while I like to use characters' insecurity to create a whole lotta lot of drama and angst. I guess I love bitter-sweet endings where nothing is resolved. So - please send your stories to me, if you don't feel confident enough to publish them here! Mind that many "amateur" writers publish their works here as well, and they don't get flamed. The dA community is truly marvelous in the terms of support and critique :)
And I love reading all kind of tutorials, even if they touch upon a matter that doesn't concern me. An artist should be open-minded and learn to write/draw all kind of things! The best way to keep the art-block away is to try new things. I think I'll actually go write a non-yaoi/yuri fanfic right now, because I just feel motivated. It's always inspiring, to talk to others :)
Ooooh and of course you are reading the mangas in order? that's very, VERY important. But I think you know that :) And seriously, the SNs are magnificient.
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Silver-Sun334 Featured By Owner May 5, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Yeah, I'm pretty sure everyone ends up dealing with that problem at some point in their lives. :C
Baah, gaining confidence is practically impossible! DX I have horrible self-esteem. But, you know what? I would be willing to try that, even though I don't want any of my 'stories' to come to light. >.< You're very lucky to have a supportive friend! c: One of my friends loves to write too, but she always used to tell me that she hates her writing. She didn't let anyone see her writing, like me. I completely understand how she feels. I managed to convince her to upload a few of her stories to dA. So, at least she's gained some confidence! (unlike me... ._.)
Alright, if I manage to somehow create another fic without completely giving up on it, I will definitely send it to you! Thanks for the pep talk, it helped! ^^
Haha yeah, I've read the first 3 Higurashi mangas so far.
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IDoNotNeedAName Featured By Owner May 5, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I'm happy to be of help! :) I'll just note my e-mail to your new account :)
Ooooh and it's not like my friend shows her work around :< she doesn't, but I still enjoy reading it very much. I publish my work mostly because I need some praise to keep myself going, since my self-esteem is probably only a tiny teeny bit higher than yours >.< which is pretty low. Also, English isn't really my mother language, so I apologise for any mistakes I may have made :) The best way of learning foreign languages for me is writing...not to mention that it gets things of my mind. Writing/drawing is really easier when you're going through bad stuff...that way you can just pour all the negative emotions onto paper :>
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crowpse Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2013   Digital Artist
SCREECHES AND SOBS HYSTERICALLY IM IN TEARS
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IDoNotNeedAName Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
haha, thank you so very much :) I am incredibly happy that you liked it. I didn't think anyone would like this.
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